Yet, I swim. I get in the water, and I may do the backstroke, or the side stroke, or power through the breast stroke or crawl, or maybe I'll just tread water, or do some aqua aerobics. I can do endless laps. When my stroke tires me, I switch to something more leisurely, something where the water is supporting me and I'm just gently gliding along, rather than 'working out.'
I have no problem calling myself a swimmer, even though the water is doing half the work. Why then, can't I call myself a runner, even though I'm taking walk breaks?
I wonder if this doesn't go back to my childhood, back to when I was given notes to be excused from running in gym class. See, even as I write this, I the words that I want to insert here are "I have exercise induced asthma, I can't run." But I'm not buying into that shit any longer. I used that as permission to be lazy for over 50 years. Yes, I have health complications, but I refuse to let them have me. The docs all told me not to exert myself, and for over 50 years I bought into the 'I can't' mindset. I gave myself permission to be unhealthy and unfit.
I'm giving myself permission to be healthy now. I'm giving myself permission to change my lifestyle so that I am more fit than I've ever been. How can I get myself out of the mindset of "I'm not a runner," and start to see this as something that I do, something that I'm working toward (nope, working toward it means I haven't achieved it, so that's not applicable)? How can I leave behind the 'I'm not a runner' and embrace 'I am a runner' without feeling like a fake, a wannabe, and a fraud?
Food for thought indeed here! Thanks to Shane for the blog fodder!